I'Ll Soon Discover

God tell me if I'm alive or dead, And if I should continue or have I reached the end? I fell down, who was there to pick me up? You weren't, I reached out and my hand you didn't grab. God you lost me, and back then my believe in you was all I had. And you left me, and you destroyed what I believed was love. For about five years I cried alone every night. I couln't open up because I always wanted to fight. That was probably because I didn't have a love to call mine. I didn't believe in love because back then I was blind. Am I still blind? Because I still can't see you Father. I need you to help me, at least so I can get along with my own father. Help me now, because I don't know if I can keep going any further. And this love, I'm ruining it and not making it any stronger. And to you my love, I'm sorry, everytime I keep getting even more wronger. I break my promises, and you say that everytime I break your heart over and over. But I promise, that soon a new peace and state of mind I will discover.