If We Were Ever Friends

Nauseating thoughts about noxious, and demeaning words that smell worse than stinking socks on sweaty feet , replay in my head making me feel so small . They swell in my mind , twisting my stomach, urging me to throw up poisonous venom of false accusations ,you've pumped into my blood stream. But I know then , that after I regurgitate , this migraine you've caused will be gone, I will be relieved. I will celebrate the accomplishment of living without ever thinking of your existence again. This time there'll be no effort to repair nor would I feel the need to defend myself for things I didn't do. This time I make no wrong decisions. No , I will not be coming back to your illusional lies'parasites. No, I will not cling to memories of better times , and inseparable moments, of sugar coated sweetness and diabetic aftermath. My subconscious will memorise , but only the final act of your dramatic moods. Our friendship is at permanent loss But , I won't waste precious time scattering its ashes nor mourning its death. No there 'll be no regret . I will walk away from you , from all We ever had , I'll let new arms embrace me , and steal me from our past. This is a revised poem . A big thankyou to all of those who helped me with their suggestions.