If Only You Knew

If only you knew Of how painful is the throb That grips my heart When I think of how cold you are Towards me, Love! If only you knew, Of how powerful are the waves That strike my coast Submerging me in their surge Drowning my tears in them Killing me with their might! If only you knew, Of those dreams that I have constantly, Those dreams related to both of us Those dreams, given to me by the skies, Wanting so eagerly to see us being By each other's side While we row our given boat In the murkiness of this world's swamps! If only you knew, Of how desperate I feel When I think that you may not see reason In between the folds of that mystical side Of mine which is related to you! If only you knew, That I have sworn to the skies To be made to cease to exist Should it be that you love me not! After all, the roots that bind us together Originate from the source of all existence If only you knew, That you came in this world, For my sake, But, blinded by Maya's veil, You have forgotten about everything else! If only you knew, That you are a fallen God, Fallen for my sake, And that your cause on Earth Would turn out to be void If you choose not to cuddle my heart In between the desirous pulls Of your lips! If only you knew Of how I yearn for an opportunity To tell you of same, When you have pushed me into A blank silence, A silence which witnesses my tears, My fears, my floods and the wilting of my flowers! If only you knew That you are hurting the Gods By not abiding to their will! Pray, if only you knew That this world is not your home, Never has it been so and never shall it be Awaited you are back there, With me by your side! If only you knew, But how would you? When you refuse to let me open up To you, As you most probably see not my pain, My hurt, my agony, my visions, And my dreams! How would you? When I remain overpowered here, Countered on all sides By the frugality of maya and its illusions! How would you? When I remain mad Mad, with my wild imagination And my mystical visions!