If I Could Rewind

If only I could rewind and go back in my mind Seek it out then destroy would I truly enjoy Would my life now be good like I feel that it should Or would things just get worse am I blessed am I cursed Will things settle and go will my happiness grow Or will things get real bad making me very sad To rewind in my mind might well make me unkind Maybe leave it alone and rejoice not condone Sometimes you're better off where you are Don'y look back you may go far Life's a gamble choose your way well What will happen time will tell If I rewind my heart would it feel torn apart Would the heartache it holds disappear or twofold Would I feel some release maybe panic would cease Or would things just get worse am I blessed am I cursed Will I find myself love and then reach on above Or will my heart still ache through the choices I make To rewind my heart might well tear me apart Maybe leave it alone and rejoice not condone Sometimes you're better off where you are Don'y look back you may go far Life's a gamble choose your way well What will happen time will tell If I rewind my life would it free me from strife Would my fears melt away leave me happy today Would my happiness flow if my memories go Or would things just get worse am I blessed am I cursed Will I ever be free to truly know me Or will life carry on without rhyme or reason To rewind my life would I not be a wife Maybe leave it alone and rejoice not condone Jane Shields 09th November 2016