If Ever (My Secret Sin)

If ever I should Race for Hell Swear on my grave with palms begging to be nailed If ever I should Hope for the best, enter my home as a guest Mention I love you, and simply forget to think of you If ever I should Now why should I pray when I got arms to bare Alarms to scare, violence to share Live this life by a strict sense of principles Wash the sins from my flesh and hope my past is rinseable Why am I so eager to constantly please Help those that lost their feet, back to their knees Give others both my hands, help them stand When selfishness is my main feature as a man And the truth is, I can't help but think of you Grip your hands and whisper I love you Must we discuss how I lost your trust Look into a crystal ball And vision a future that doesn't consist of the two of us Gun in palms, rehearsing a common verse from Psalms No father figure, holding his daughter in arms Place her on satin pillows, given a good night charm In all hopes loves relaxes on her covers and keeps her warm I surrender take me to his cross and nail me Scream in blasphemy as these demons trail me Mistakes keep calling me back Heartaches keep me falling on tracks And I know my soul is shallow Forgive it being constantly in battle