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I Yearn

For once this is not fiction

Can you change the past?
I yearn to,
But on condition I carry with me
All that I have learned.
But you cannot change the past.

Still, I yearn for a bottle 
Of chilled white wine Chablis.
Delicious on the palette,
Exquisite with rice and plenty of seafood.
The aroma of truffled sauce, the razor clams,
The pinkish prawns and open-wide oysters.
It is my delight.

I yearn for silence, away from rife, 
The sounds of cars crashing, the boom of guns, 
The killing of innocent people.
I yearn for peace.

I yearn to travel as I used,
For I visited half of Europe
And ventured to Brazil.  
Now I’m Island bound and
Travel is no more.

You look good, they say.
But only on the outside.
I yearn for health inside:
The small inoperable cancer, 
Kept in check by implants
With bouts of depression
That twice I deleted my poetry site.
Good thing I kept copies of my writings.
But my heart is weak after
Twenty years when I had a triple bypass.
My right eye has the beginning of a cataract,
My left knee needs a replacement
But with Diabetes 2 no operation can be done.

I yearn for my wife. 
Seven years I still grieve for her.
She’s in Heaven now.

I yearn for my beloved Lord.
The creator of all.
I pray He takes care of me.
May He grant me a happy death.
And may the Rose of Sharon help me too.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2024

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Nicholsen Avatar
May 9, 2024 at 1:53 PM
Indeed my beloved Victor Indeed may you always be blessed by the holy spirit how blessed you are eat well sleep well pray hard many blessings of comfort and healing be well in Jesus name Amen.
Empress Avatar
May 8, 2024 at 9:45 AM
You are very strong dear victor, to not just be able to write about all that youv endured and overcome and all that you carry within and wishes and hopes you have within, but also to have overcome all that and to still keep going despite loss and so much more . I really felt the sincerity of your poem. I pray for peace and i hope you have days of good health and thoughts. Sending you light always. Keep inspiring us all and keep sharing your innermost thoughts so poetically. Its inspiring. Fave it is
Elliott Avatar
May 8, 2024 at 4:13 AM
A stirring and eloquent poem on your life, Victor. You write with such passion. You have a wisdom. The Lord's loving blessings to you. ~
DiMino Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 9:55 AM
Everyone's life is a story of joy and defeat. Worthy of a book. You have lived many lives in this one passing -- blessed and tried, tested, and I would say, by your wonderful compelling poetry, are victorious. Blessings my friend. My prayers are with you and your loved one.
Roper Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 9:28 AM
Life brings us those that we need in our lives. Great memories always are the best and kept close to our hearts. Thank you for being a awfully good friend. :')
Rodgers Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 7:16 AM
Dear Victor, I loved how your longing to change the past echoes a universal desire for redemption and growth, tempered by the wisdom of experience. Your words are a testament to resilience and faith, inspiring us to embrace each moment with gratitude and grace. May your journey be blessed with the presence of the divine, guiding you towards peace and fulfillment. - Blessings, Daniel
Rolland Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 4:28 AM
wonderful and touching poem, i hope there is finction here, Take care poet, reading you is so enjoyable and moving yann
Buhagiar Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 5:59 AM
No, this is the truth for once.
Williams Avatar
May 7, 2024 at 3:41 AM
I felt sad reading your poem, dearest Victor. True to life, as we age, we may yearn for the things we once enjoyed, like our favourite foods and travel. However, it can be difficult when we realize we've lost loved ones and our health isn't what it used to be. My heart aches for you. Though you have taken the right attitude, I feel. During these times, turning to God for solace and grace through prayer and faith can provide the strength and support needed to overcome life's challenges. My love and hugs to you xxx
Buehler Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 9:58 PM
Victor, your lovely poem touched me, as it revisited the times of your life, both happy and sad, years of travel, grief and health challenges, your yearnings, regrets and loves. This is a fave. :)
George Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 9:09 PM
This is so heart stirring. I know there is no element of fiction here, but pure autobiography. Even with many ailments, you look so good. I assume this is your real picture. In our long life we lose many dear ones. Don't grieve for them. Believe they are in a better state. Hope there is a state of bliss awaiting us too. So don't fear death. A beautiful poem. I send you much love and prayers
Buhagiar Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 9:23 PM
Yes that is a photo of me taken a few months ago.
Kavanagh  Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 3:02 PM
These type of non fiction ones are always the most powerful Victor, the yearning is palpable and fully understandable, depression on its own is difficult enough, but with all the other contributing illnesses and grief on top, what more can I say, other than I wish you well! An extremely raw emotive piece, cheers David
Pandit Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 2:49 PM
A poem from the heart, Victor. I hear the sound of yearnings and the ache of grief for your beloved wife. May all your wishes come true!
Goldsmith Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 2:45 PM
"I Yearn" is an amazing write/good picture. Great Ending.... Love This One..... FAV for me... May God Grant You Peace. Have a blessed/wonderful ~ day/week..................
Cunningham Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 2:43 PM
As we get older our health declines, you're certainly not alone Victor, many will share your pain. Tom
Allison Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 2:36 PM
you wear your heart on your sleeve with this heartfelt poem, I am so blessed to have met both you and Liliane, the picture of you is awesome too, hugs Jan xx
Rodrigues Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 12:16 PM
Poignancy in your words, dear poet. At a certain age, the pleasures are held at bay, with mostly memories. My Dad had some laughs when a cousin visited a couple weeks ago. We went to a beautiful winery in the Yonah Mountains. Dad is the only parent left from us and our cousin (his mom was my mom’s twin). Brought joy to my cousin to talk to Dad. Praying for you, my dear friend. Jesus will certainly receive you. Hugs ~ Kim
Poet Avatar
May 6, 2024 at 12:14 PM
Victor, an excellent poem is all about longing for many parts of life. Rewriting history, savoring life's little pleasures like wine and food, overcoming hardships like disease and loss, and finding comfort in one's religion are all necessities. Feelings of spirituality, longing for physical and mental well, reminiscences of trips, encounters with disease, sadness over loved ones' deaths, and contemplation of the past are all components of powerful imagery and language.
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