I Wonder

I wonder how your touch would make me feel now Its warmth, which comforted me once, Would probably burn me I'll turn away from it As if it were a viper Wanting to harm me! I wonder how your eyes would seem to me now Their tender gaze would probably make me want to cry So much that I'll stay away from you Fearing you as if you were pestilence Telling myself that someday, somehow, I'll amass enough strength in me As to be unmoved and unshaken by you! I wonder at how life would seem to me now I had found meaning and purpose in you But now, I only feel like renouncing it Seeing it as a mere medium through which I Accidentally fell and which has me trapped in its web! I wonder how the Heavens would seem to me now They were that which I looked up to When the harshness of Earth pricked me Promised they had been, to me, If i would meet certain conditions of the Gods! But now, They seem empty, as empty as ghost towns are Or as empty as sunken ships are! I wonder at everything that has happened to me Still I choose to hold my belief in my faith firm Pray, life pricks and its madness Is potent enough as to render everyone in its midst Mad as well! I wonder if my prayers would be answered If the Gods would listen to me And would take me away, far away from this world Which only gave me laments in return for having Dared taken birth in its womb! Pray, I sit and wonder in the silence of winter As its winds chill my bones Causing my separation from the Gods to hurt To such an extent that living feels like an agony!