I wish I were put in a mental hospital

I wish I were put in a mental hospital. I wish the doctor would say I need help. I wish my teacher would tell others I won't be around. I wish my clothes turned into a hospital gown. Because, maybe then, people would know the truth. They would know I wasn't joking. They would know how hard my life is. And mainly, because I could finally have a place to feel alive. I wish I successfully committed suicide. I wish my parents would realize how many signs they had ignored. I wish my friends would start to actually worry. I wish my mind would disappear forever. Because, maybe then, people would know it wasn't a joke. They would tear themselves apart for not seeing it before. They would say nice things at my funeral. But mainly, Because I finally wouldn't be alive.