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I Threw Away the Mask

I thank everyone, visiting this series. I appreciate all your kind comments! # 4 in the Motivational Series. (Regarding overcoming child abuse and trauma) I threw away the mask You said you wouldn’t have left, if I hadn’t told you to My words were that of a fifteen year old, what was I to do? I risked abandonment again and got it in my face As you ran away with glee to your new place You were the adult, able to take yourself away Regardless of what happened to me that day I tell you now, I am the adult and I choose what is best! For me, for my life and all the rest! I know you can’t accept the way that I feel But I will and I have always chosen to be real! I threw away the fake family mask long ago I took my own path, as you very well know I am not a mold for you to manipulate, abuse and bend! This is not a path that you can bring to an end! You cannot cast a fishing pole and catch me on a line You cannot reel me back and expect me to be fine Don’t forget the fire burned, when you stood with that chief! While your child was tortured and evil took life like a thief! Heidi Sands 1/8/19

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Gershon Wolf

Date: 1/9/2019 7:27:00 PM

Reading this, I just don't know how you got through all this, my friend...But I'm sure glad you did. More power to you!!! :) gw

Heidi Sands
Date: 1/9/2019 7:36:00 PM

It was a tremendous amount of trauma and it is a life long process to deal with. But , I am very grateful to be where I am at and turn it around to positive things. Thank you so much Gershon. :)

Sandra L. Weiss

Date: 1/9/2019 7:15:00 PM

Oh Heidi, my heart feels such sadness reading what your childhood was about. But this poem shows your strength and determination to throw it all back to the source. Persevere, my friend.

Heidi Sands
Date: 1/9/2019 7:19:00 PM

I was one of many hurt. A very bad complex situation But I am fortunate for the human angels in my life along the way, then and now, and faith. I am grateful for so much in my life now too. Thank you, my friend :) I will.

Susan Ashley

Date: 1/8/2019 9:40:00 PM

Baring your soul in the artistic expression of your trauma and pain is beautifully inspirational, Heidi. I admire your courage and your heart. Warmest wishes always, my friend.. ~Susan

Heidi Sands
Date: 1/9/2019 4:24:00 AM

Thank you very much Susan. I appreciate your kind words and support. I wish you the best. Happy New Year :)

Tom Cunningham

Date: 1/8/2019 2:37:00 PM

Time can ease the pain Heidi but the deep scars remain, the worst thing is to try and bury those painful memories. Speaking or indeed writing about them I hope will bring some sort of closure. Tom.

Heidi Sands
Date: 1/8/2019 3:12:00 PM

Hi Tom. You are absolutely right. The scars do remain. I hope to reach others who have been through difficult childhood's as well, so they do not feel alone. It is very important for victims to be able to speak and be heard. Speaking, reaching out and writing are all helpful. My series still has some more to go, then I will take a break and return to it or not later. Thank you for your visits and comments :)