I Thought I Was Free
You held me down like gravity
Blaming me for everything
You bought flowers to say sorry
Id forgive you everytime
When did you forgive me ?
Never ever have you ever forgiven me
Love is not a game
And now you want a family while your locked away
Love doesnt work that way
You think you know me like your daughters
You act like your the king of the fathers
I finally admit my actions sucked as a mother
Here i am still trapped carrying your emotions
When i have mine and theirs to take care of
It still wasnt good enough with all my devotions
You gas lighted me
In return you protected the kids as if i did this
Im figuring out who the girls are, who i am
You had your chance to be around
Now that theres board games you dont have a match
Behind closed doors were closed hearts
You dont know how to build a family
Your trauma is a weakness in my witness
Are you listening to me now ?
Now my voice counts when im ready to leave
What kind of love do you believe ?
My love is to love myself for the first time in my life
You were so happy
Wishing i would stay
I stayed
Trapped !
I thought I was free
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