I Thought I Was Free

You held me down like gravity Blaming me for everything You bought flowers to say sorry Id forgive you everytime When did you forgive me ? Never ever have you ever forgiven me Love is not a game And now you want a family while your locked away Love doesnt work that way You think you know me like your daughters You act like your the king of the fathers I finally admit my actions sucked as a mother Here i am still trapped carrying your emotions When i have mine and theirs to take care of It still wasnt good enough with all my devotions You gas lighted me In return you protected the kids as if i did this Im figuring out who the girls are, who i am You had your chance to be around Now that theres board games you dont have a match Behind closed doors were closed hearts You dont know how to build a family Your trauma is a weakness in my witness Are you listening to me now ? Now my voice counts when im ready to leave What kind of love do you believe ? My love is to love myself for the first time in my life You were so happy Wishing i would stay I stayed Trapped ! I thought I was free