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I Shut Down and Die Each Night

I shut down and die each night.
I do not want to entertain anyone.
I do not want to hear my name.
I do not want to fix supper.

I shut down and die each night.
Spending my evening in my zippered zebra pajamas
And fluffy socks that do not have to match.
I pick up the remote and two I-pads and I sit in a stupor
Dead as the wall, the floor, the carpet, anything in the room.

I die the second I jump into my pajamas.
My phone goes off, and I am incognito, inaccessible, and dead.
My husband annoys me sometimes.
"Someone is calling you."
He used to answer my phone.
He has learned.
This is a dumb thing to do.
I will not be coaxed, coerced, or guilt-ed into anything I do
Not want to do.

I am dead, in my Lazy-Girl chair, clicking aimlessly through TV
shows I am not watching. I am dead to you, and me, and him
and everyone else. I die every night. It is how I can face the next day at work.


Copyright © | Year Posted 2019




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Date: 3/5/2019 1:07:00 PM
Hi Caren, Dead to the world till a.m.- please do not disturb! Original and creative - your imagination however is working 24/7. Awesome poem Caren - time in South Africa to put my zebra nightie on - still 25 degrees at night, put my zebra PJ's away till June! Poetry hugs, Jennifer.
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Caren Krutsinger
Date: 3/5/2019 7:05:00 PM
Thank you Jennifer. I love my zebra pajamas; we are BRRR cold here. High will be 37 degrees tomorrow.
Date: 3/5/2019 4:29:00 AM
Caren.. Love your pajamas! And the poem, too. Good you do shut down with how hard you work. I am enamored of a new magenta housecoat,soft as a cloud. TV has bored me since being on here. I have become addicted to both the brilliant poets and Latin Jazz. At that point, am in my glory I go to slewed, first thought in my mind, Always, without fail, is my love. Love, Panagiota.
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Caren Krutsinger
Date: 3/5/2019 4:55:00 AM
Thank you my friend. I am overwhelmed with happy thoughts toward you today. Thank you for such lovely comments, Panagiota.
Date: 3/5/2019 3:14:00 AM
Wow, Caren is on the warpath. Still I like it. The sort of dark poem I love to write. Well done. (But I know it's fiction :))
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Caren Krutsinger
Date: 3/5/2019 4:55:00 AM
Victor, it is so not-fiction it is hilarious! My husband is hiding under his desk, trying not to breathe.