I Shall Not Let Myself To Get Away Easily

My eyes are red and mind is indignant And a face I have too much annoyed You need not to bother them at all It is true that I am angry and vexed And that is not with any one of you But i am enraged and infuriated with myself To lead a life and just to sustain I need to go down and to such a low From taking bribery to telling lies Doing conspiracy and spreading malice As if I do not have any human quality Nor have I any human value or merit I am totally disgusted with myself and fed up with this life which wants more than the things I can honestly earn and manage ,a huge pity on me, I cannot live a life, just and true, without bias and without prejudice It is an utter shame that I could not take A balanced view over matters till date It is too long that I fail to win over Fear,favor neither have i control over lust and greed My eyes are red and I am really furious I shall not let myself to get away this time and walk away it off the hook easily