I Pray

I find it hard to live today, thoughts of death bring me so close to the edge, I pray and pray, I really try but, l feel no passion for life anymore, what will make me stop today, how will I make these thoughts of death go away,I know Lord. you hear my every prayer, but, my mind is so, closed Lord I can't hear you, What will I do , as much as i pray I see no end in sight, death surounds me it calls my name I here it so clear, I know Lord in the end it's all up to me, I know you won't take away my free will, so I have to deal, with this one in my heart and mind, Can I fight, can I win this battle,it's a war inside of me, no one knows but, you Lord, I give it all to you, and I pray again please Lord the world is to much for me, to much sadness and pain, I pray Lord, if it's okay please take me home with you,Can I go home, if not Lord please bring my troubled mind and heart some peace! Lord as you know it's a long rough road to heaven but a short easy trip to hell!