I Lost Myself

I lost myself Through the most worthless things Starved for love from others When I had none for myself Comparing myself to individuals Who shone on their own Dimming my own light By my own accord Living in fear of not being worthwhile Not worth anything Not worth anyone's time Not being anyone's first choice Living in fear of being alone Ever the follower I was Never the leader of my own heart Drunk by being needed When I was only being used Used of the goodness I had Drained of my own light Blinded by everything Hating myself My wet pillow sheets were my friends at night Red baggy underlies accompanied me by day Lost myself to those not worth the losing I have bled I have teared I have drowned I ended up losing the most important thing I needed for myself Myself To be continued