I Keep It Bleeding

Searching mindlessly with my reading light for a flashlight— I used you as a comfort to get to his ultimate hue of bloom Puking in a fine porcelain sink with a dirty trashcan in sight— I opened on you pain instead of the other that could take it Turning on the air conditioning with the window open— I never let you help me; I was always looking elsewhere Stabbing the can with the knife and leaving the can opener inside— I left you hidden as I drilled on others’ for their pleasure Watching a starved child on TV while eating a sandwich— I engorged on your love as you bent over in emptiness Peeling off a newly-formed scab from a cut on my arm— I never let our relationship heal; I keep it bleeding!!!!!!