I Have A Split

I have a split Like a sundae But in my body I have cold feet I wish my walls would melt away I wish that they could see My perspective is blank In the middle I stray I'm tired of talking I just want to meet My maker in heaven Because no one believes I have a split body In a split screen world I feel like too many people Am I a boy or a girl Why is my hand moving Why aren't my legs I'm a bit of a ghoul see I died already when I was a kid I didn't get to meet him when I visited I act like I have no fear But I can't even tell if I'm actually here Am a dreaming of a life I could've had It feels out of my control like that I have a split I don't know what to do with it My reactions are mixed And I can't decide I sit on the fence but there's 5 seats I sit in the middle so I can Feel myself eat Instead of on the right Where they can hear my cries I have a split