''I Had To Get Low To Find Myself''
My brother brought George home one day,
I heard their bikes rumbling and roaring loud;
And then there he was standing in my driveway,
He was a God in black leather, a bad boy so proud
.
I think it was at that very moment I fell in love,
and the sky filled with cloud.
The very next day he came looking for me,
We went on his bike to see pretty country scenery;
Against advice, I moved in with him and I was happy,
My brother, my parents, my friends told me he was gangly.
At first, it was perfect I thought myself blessed,
I did not know about the drinking or the bad temper;
Then one day, he came home drunk and in a real mess,
It was the beginning of a downward spiral into surrender.
I lost myself somewhere and I was so low in the trap,
seemed life would never get better.
I was ashamed to call my family for some help,
When he broke my nose I crawled home to mother;
My parents were frantic and in their arms I found self.
I had lost everything, my job, money, clothes, in this blunder.
My parents put me to bed and slowly I found hope,
I will never forget my Dad taking me shopping at Sears;
He bought me a whole new wardrobe, they were my lifeboat,
When I was healed, I got a job and still I think about those years.
How I had to struggle to find me again, to find my words,
the poems trapped in my bleeding tears.
It took time but I emerged from the tangled nightmare,
I found the butterfly dwelling within, it was all so very clear;
All part of this journey, lessons to learn and the power of prayer.
To this day I am careful who I let into my life, I still have some fear.
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July 20, 2015
Poetry/Rhyme/"I had to get low to find myself"
Copyright Protected, ID 15-692-350-0
All Rights Reserved. Written under Pseudonym.
For the contest, Get Low,
sponsor, Casarah Nance
Second Place
Copyright © Constance La France | Year Posted 2015
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