Alex Duffy Poet Free verse

I Don'T Have a Title For This

I don't have a title for this
But I promise that fear won't become my rival from this
I won't let a horrible moment make me suicidal from this
I have a lot to get off my chest but I don't have a title for this

I refuse to be broken so I'm trying to stay strong 
but the flashbacks of what happened, are making every day long
I need to use this anger for something productive and not destructive
I need to find my own closure and allow peace of mind to be my justice

a night out with friends turned bad on my way home 
2 guys approached me while I was on my own
They asked if I had a lighter, I told them I don't smoke, then one grabbed me while the other searched my pockets
He didn't take anything, but he touched me inappropriately and there was nothing I could do to stop it

I've never felt less of a man because I froze when he put his hand down my jeans
I felt too embarrassed and humiliated to try and scream 
It only lasted about 30 seconds to a minute but it replays a lot in my mind
I'm taking it one day at a time, but I promise that I will be fine

I'm letting this be known because I don't want to bottle it up and have it affect me at a later date
I'm trying to not think about it too much, because my mind won't allow me to remember the guys face
I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing 
Even though I was broken that night, I won't allow it to cause me continuous heartbreak

I don't know if I'll talk about this again because it makes me uncomfortable 
Never again will I allow myself to be this vulnerable 
I'll smile again and fear won't be my rival from this 
This was difficult for me to write, I'm sorry that I don't have a title for this

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Jenish Somadas December 23, 2019 at 4:52 AM You don't need a title for this.. Sad incident and from the heart you wrote.. Takecare..

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart November 29, 2019 at 9:49 AM Alex, thank you for sharing this courageous write. I know how such things linger. Warm hugs brave soul, xomo Alex Duffy December 1, 2019 at 1:36 AM Thank you, I was unsure whether to wirte/post this, but I wanted to share it so I can move on and not let it control me, hugs to you too. Have a great day Xo