I Do Need You So Lord Why

Arms extended, tears drowning my eyes, I fall to my knees I do need you so Lord. Life is supposed to provide inspiration Instead unfurl brokenhearted and regrets, wrapping around me like a vise making it difficult to endure the pain. Repeated sounds of thunder ring out as screams of vile names are vibrated; food flung against the walls, never is anything perfect. A slap across the face and the taste of blood, a relationship with family impossible, they are imbeciles. I am told a bullet would end it all; it is done all the time. "Oh, dear God, please help me." I am a mirror, constantly shattered. I refuse to think less of this body. I am yearning to break free. For just moments I feel smidgens of contentment. The quiet that settles over peace within. Inside I am still broken and damaged. There are no feelings, No emotion, No peace, There is nothing just anger. I hunger for Your touch, before the last bit of my soul is gone. I am starving to be scooped into loving arms. A wave of exquisite warmth overwhelms me. It hadn't been the first time it had happened so I knew what it was. I found myself rising to my feet and bathed in the exquisite feeling. 1-31-2018 Poetry Contest: Free Verse on Sadness (again)' Sponsored By: Laura Loo