I Chose To Run But Had I Stayed Things Would Have Been Like

A continued cycle of torture and abuse: If I stayed, I would probably be dead, so I had no choice but to run as far away as I could. Living with you was hell on earth; as soon as you knew I loved you; everything changed. I didn’t know at the time that you were grooming me. You made it, so I was totally dependent on you. I was ostracized by my family and friends. I was in your prison, I was your prisoner and you my warden. You were a warden of abuse, you didn’t loved me. All you wanted to do was control every part of me. I was a piece of meat that you pounced on as you saw fit. You insulted me with vicious words and with your filthy hands continuously. I don’t know how I found the strength to leave because you were all I had. I thought about going back to you all the time. And you, know what the sad part is? I still think about going back to you and it’s been over ten years………........