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I Chose To Run But Had I Stayed Things Would Have Been Like

A continued cycle of torture and abuse: If I stayed, I would probably be dead, so I had no choice but to run as far away as I could. Living with you was hell on earth; as soon as you knew I loved you; everything changed. I didn’t know at the time that you were grooming me. You made it, so I was totally dependent on you. I was ostracized by my family and friends. I was in your prison, I was your prisoner and you my warden. You were a warden of abuse, you didn’t loved me. All you wanted to do was control every part of me. I was a piece of meat that you pounced on as you saw fit. You insulted me with vicious words and with your filthy hands continuously. I don’t know how I found the strength to leave because you were all I had. I thought about going back to you all the time. And you, know what the sad part is? I still think about going back to you and it’s been over ten years………........

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Date: 2/3/2023 9:33:00 AM
Pleased to read below that this poem is fiction Alexis, though we know it happens in life hopefully most victims have the strength to escape. Hope you are well you’ve been missed… Belle
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Date: 1/22/2023 12:53:00 PM
Where are you Alexis? Are you ok?
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Date: 1/23/2023 4:27:00 AM
Hi Heidi, I’m ok I just have been busy with life. I appreciate your concern. I hope your New Year is going good thus far:-) Alexis
Date: 1/1/2023 5:25:00 AM
By God's grace, I greet you with the peace and joy of Christmas toward a prosperous New Year along this present: "the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord" (Romans 6:23 of the King James Bible). God bless you.
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Date: 10/31/2022 5:35:00 AM
Alexis, what a story! I hope it is fiction but applaud your strength if not! This is chilling to read!!! Happy Monday to you xxoo
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Date: 10/30/2022 8:19:00 PM
Wow, one heartbreaking poem, Alexis, if not fiction, so sorry you had to go through this pain, The poetry though is a wonderful statement to others in the same situation. Your bravery i'm sure will help others... Harry
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Date: 10/29/2022 12:15:00 PM
You were one of the lucky ones Alexis, thank god you managed to get out. Tom
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Date: 10/29/2022 11:43:00 AM
I'm so happy that you were able to escape this controlling man who made your life so miserable. And, yes, you are lucky to be alive. Always look forward, Alexis, not backward.
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Date: 10/29/2022 11:11:00 AM
It still can have a strong hold for certain women, and I am proud of you that you escaped it. Keep up the good work, Alexis.
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Date: 10/29/2022 11:09:00 AM
Forget the past and focus on your future! The season is approaching for you to be jolly! Aloha!
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Date: 10/29/2022 10:42:00 AM
Heartfelt lookback at life that could have been. Sometimes its better to walk away as you did. Highly emotive write, Alexis.
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Date: 10/29/2022 10:25:00 AM
How cowardly men are to abuse their partner. And still, you think of him. Hugs.
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Date: 10/29/2022 12:56:00 PM
Hi Victor, I appreciate that you was the first one to leave such a thoughtful comment. However, this poem is fiction. I was inspired by the contest with the same name. Have a nice day my friend:-)Alexis