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I am still me

I am still Me You laugh and I laugh with you But are you laughing with me Or are you laughing at me? It’s difficult to ascertain Because you see right now I can’t be certain Of what is real Despite what I might feel It’s hard to understand But harder to explain So please take my hand Because I am still me Just the Me you don’t like to see But this me and the other me Combine to make me Me Does it make you uncomfortable? That I’m not who I should be Would you prefer I tell a fable And pretend all is well Although you can tell That something is quite wrong And it has been for long I can’t help being ill It affects how I feel I don’t mean to be shrill But the look in your eyes When you behold my flaws Sends self-worth through the door Cause I see what you see And although I am me I want to hide from what I see Through your eyes that is me I am not quite well But I am still quite me And I can feel Though it’s more pain That hammers my soul like rain I wish to be normal I wish to be free But I am still me And must learn to love me Even the Me that I see when The world is distorted With visions of darkness And can’t trust a friend Cause I can’t trust me So don’t make it about you You are still you And I am still me You haven’t changed But my mind plays tricks That makes me not quite me It’s hard to see But even harder to be This person with a label That turns friends to fiends And can’t trust their laughter Cause it makes me wonder Are you laughing with me? Or are you laughing at me?

Copyright © | Year Posted 2015




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Date: 2/28/2016 7:41:00 AM
nice to see this one back
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Date: 1/7/2016 12:46:00 AM
:) Hope to see you bac this year 2016
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Date: 4/17/2015 4:15:00 PM
Wow. Thanks for the love guys. Very much appreciated. I am looking forward to reading all your poems.
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Date: 4/15/2015 6:26:00 PM
CATHERINE, Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. I will get much delight in reading and in time become familiar with your verse. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs* SKAT
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Date: 4/15/2015 7:23:00 AM
- I wish you Catherine and your first poem here at the P Soup welcome - Always nice with new "poet" friends - Good luck, looking forward to many more poems in the future - // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 4/14/2015 6:16:00 PM
Catherine, A nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. I hope you have fun with this wonderful community. You'll find many friendly poets who are ready to support and give positive feedback. I will enjoy following you and your poetry when you are ready :) We are Lucky To Have you. Enjoy 2015, with New Poet Friends @-> LINDA <-@
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Date: 4/13/2015 10:32:00 AM
You're welcome, Catherine. Don't be afraid to post your works here, as the site is definitely for works that not only amuse and inspire, but educate, inform and question. Many can only express themselves in verse, and sometimes you can release your frustrations easier in words if instead of kicking them out, you make them dance. Look forward to more of your thoughts, regardless of subject. Viv x
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Date: 4/13/2015 12:17:00 AM
Speaking as a carer for my disabled brother, yes, it can be tough when people judge by outward appearances, and is an effective filter for weeding out true friends. A great first submission, Catherine, and welcome to Poetry Soup. I'm sure you'll meet lots of nice people here, and have a good time on the site. Viv x
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Catherine St. Louis Pierre
Date: 4/13/2015 9:05:00 AM
Thanks Viv. It's very encouraging to hear how you understand what your brother goes through dealing with his disability. It must also be very hard for you, hope you have a support system. I have been living with bipolar disorder for the better part of 16 years and as hard as it is for me some days I know it is equally hard for my family. I was really nervous about submitting this poembut your comment put a smile on my face. Thanks again.