I Am Still Me

I am still Me

You laugh and I laugh with you
But are you laughing with me 
Or are you laughing at me?
It’s difficult to ascertain
Because you see
 right now I can’t be certain
Of what is real 
Despite what I might feel
It’s hard to understand
But harder to explain
So please take my hand
Because I am still me
Just the Me you don’t like to see
But this me and the other me
Combine to make me Me

Does it make you uncomfortable?
That I’m not who I should be
Would you prefer I tell a fable
And pretend all is well
Although you can tell
That something is quite wrong
And it has been for long
I can’t help being ill
It affects how I feel
I don’t mean to be shrill
But the look in your eyes
When you behold my flaws
Sends self-worth through the door
Cause I see what you see
And although I am me
I want to hide from what I see
Through your eyes that is me

I am not quite well
But I am still quite me
And I can feel
Though it’s more pain
That hammers my soul like rain
I wish to be normal
I wish to be free
But I am still me
And must learn to love me
Even the Me that I see when 
The world is distorted
With visions of darkness
And can’t trust a friend
Cause I can’t trust me

So don’t make it about you
You are still you
And I am still me
You haven’t changed
But my mind plays tricks
That makes me not quite me
It’s hard to see
But even harder to be
This person with a label
That turns friends to fiends
And can’t trust their laughter
Cause it makes me wonder
Are you laughing with me?
Or are you laughing at me?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015


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Date: 11/11/2024 8:24:00 PM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
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Date: 2/28/2016 7:41:00 AM
nice to see this one back
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Date: 1/7/2016 12:46:00 AM
:) Hope to see you bac this year 2016
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Date: 4/17/2015 4:15:00 PM
Wow. Thanks for the love guys. Very much appreciated. I am looking forward to reading all your poems.
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Date: 4/15/2015 6:26:00 PM
CATHERINE, Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. I will get much delight in reading and in time become familiar with your verse. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs* SKAT
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Date: 4/15/2015 7:23:00 AM
- I wish you Catherine and your first poem here at the P Soup welcome - Always nice with new "poet" friends - Good luck, looking forward to many more poems in the future - // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 4/14/2015 6:16:00 PM
Catherine, A nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. I hope you have fun with this wonderful community. You'll find many friendly poets who are ready to support and give positive feedback. I will enjoy following you and your poetry when you are ready :) We are Lucky To Have you. Enjoy 2015, with New Poet Friends @-> LINDA <-@
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Date: 4/13/2015 10:32:00 AM
You're welcome, Catherine. Don't be afraid to post your works here, as the site is definitely for works that not only amuse and inspire, but educate, inform and question. Many can only express themselves in verse, and sometimes you can release your frustrations easier in words if instead of kicking them out, you make them dance. Look forward to more of your thoughts, regardless of subject. Viv x
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Date: 4/13/2015 12:17:00 AM
Speaking as a carer for my disabled brother, yes, it can be tough when people judge by outward appearances, and is an effective filter for weeding out true friends. A great first submission, Catherine, and welcome to Poetry Soup. I'm sure you'll meet lots of nice people here, and have a good time on the site. Viv x
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Catherine St. Louis Pierre
Date: 4/13/2015 9:05:00 AM
Thanks Viv. It's very encouraging to hear how you understand what your brother goes through dealing with his disability. It must also be very hard for you, hope you have a support system. I have been living with bipolar disorder for the better part of 16 years and as hard as it is for me some days I know it is equally hard for my family. I was really nervous about submitting this poembut your comment put a smile on my face. Thanks again.
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