I Am Still Me

I am still Me You laugh and I laugh with you But are you laughing with me Or are you laughing at me? It’s difficult to ascertain Because you see right now I can’t be certain Of what is real Despite what I might feel It’s hard to understand But harder to explain So please take my hand Because I am still me Just the Me you don’t like to see But this me and the other me Combine to make me Me Does it make you uncomfortable? That I’m not who I should be Would you prefer I tell a fable And pretend all is well Although you can tell That something is quite wrong And it has been for long I can’t help being ill It affects how I feel I don’t mean to be shrill But the look in your eyes When you behold my flaws Sends self-worth through the door Cause I see what you see And although I am me I want to hide from what I see Through your eyes that is me I am not quite well But I am still quite me And I can feel Though it’s more pain That hammers my soul like rain I wish to be normal I wish to be free But I am still me And must learn to love me Even the Me that I see when The world is distorted With visions of darkness And can’t trust a friend Cause I can’t trust me So don’t make it about you You are still you And I am still me You haven’t changed But my mind plays tricks That makes me not quite me It’s hard to see But even harder to be This person with a label That turns friends to fiends And can’t trust their laughter Cause it makes me wonder Are you laughing with me? Or are you laughing at me?