I Am

I know you fell in love with the girl that always seemed to be happy And I know that you loved me more before I told you what had happened.. I'm so sorry for the times I kept you up because I was trying to end my life , I'm sorry for the times I left scars on my thighs I know I'm not beautiful, or smart. I cry myself to sleep because I'm falling apart, I can't hold on much longer my hands are tired from having to hold my broken heart. This life I have been living just never seems to have a good start. I can't tell you how many times I've held all the pills and my hand and cried by myself in the dark. I hate myself because I know I'm not beautiful and I'm sure the reason he's only with me is so I'll stay breathing , but I can't breath when there's a tear in my heart and my lungs full of smoke ,I'm just waiting for the day I'm hanging from the rope and it's so tight around my throat Hailee burkett