I Always Thought

I tried, I truly tried I reached out hoping Sat back wishing Checked the screen over and over Still nothing to be found, nothing Not a word, no hello Not even a "Go to hell" I thought we were more Years pass and I still can't shake it That feeling of everything Everything I have ever wanted Was I too pushy, not pushy enough Could I have been more...less Those days remain, The feelings ever strong The days linger and the nights drain me As here I sit writing, gibberish it seems But my heart holds this pen, it won't let go It longs to be heard, to be felt To be understood You and me, that phrase won't leave me It haunts me, it taunts me It echoes on silent mornings And screams on lonely nights When did the "and" disappear When did we disappear I know this is just a collection of words Most don't care I always thought you would I always thought we would be us I always thought...that was the problem Sorry soupers. Kind of a down point for me. I will sit here and try to write something lighthearted. :)