How To Fake a Smile

Written 28 October 2021


I went to a singles bar for the first time.
The lounge was full of smoke and smell
of heavy liquor.  The bartender quite busy.
Music blared “Smoke gets in your eyes”.
I smiled despite a small tear that got lost in my beard.

I sat alone at the counter.  Too many people, but  
I did not like to sit alone at a table where I would be
more conspicuous.  Finally the drink arrived.

I looked at it with distaste.  Am I to drown
my sorrows by getting stinky drunk?
Frankly it was not my style.  But what was I to do?

A woman sidled up to me.  Asked for a drink.
She was already half drunk.  I gave her my own.
I smiled.  She stared at me.  Was I happy there?

I did not answer.  Crying because she left me.
Was not going to make things better.
So I smiled despite the fact that it was a phoney smirk.

The bartender promptly put another drink before me.
I drank it up and left into the cold air outside.
It was then that I could not help but cry.


FICTION

Copyright © | Year Posted 2021



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Date: 11/24/2021 8:12:00 PM
Sometimes we have to fake a smile when we are crying inside....Interesting narration, Victor ! Next time get into a clean and nice bar :) :)
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Date: 11/3/2021 3:37:00 PM
Very well expressed. Sometimes we hold in what needs to come out; it will at some point. A good write with feeling.
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Date: 11/1/2021 11:30:00 AM
Internalizing pain is quite human I think. Nice fiction Victor. :) Linda
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Date: 10/30/2021 2:12:00 PM
Those that keep their pains to themselves suffer the worst I feel. Great write.
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Date: 10/29/2021 5:43:00 PM
We all have to fake a smile sometimes, especially when feeling lonely. A tear jerking write Victor, fiction though it is… Belle
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Date: 10/28/2021 4:28:00 PM
A lot of sucking it up. Doesn’t sound like the place to be.
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Date: 10/28/2021 2:15:00 PM
really enjoyed this one, my friend. Loved this line: I smiled despite a small tear that got lost in my beard.
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Date: 10/28/2021 1:57:00 PM
Ahh!! A sad one. I felt for the writer, bartender and the visitors to the bar. Enjoyed reading this one today. I could go many places with my thoughts but I won't. Thanks for the visit to my page. The trip out was nice despite the rain. Sara
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Date: 10/28/2021 12:42:00 PM
- We do not shed tears with strangers ... we want comfort and understanding ... not fake words, smiles or hugs from half drunk ladies ... a sad poem, Victor - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 10/28/2021 9:41:00 AM
some people rather cry alone, its easier I guess, I hope this is all fiction, :)
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Date: 10/28/2021 9:59:00 AM
Of course :)
Date: 10/28/2021 8:23:00 AM
Victor, I think this is called - drowning sorrows. Your protagonist did the right thing, one drink then he left..Delice
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Date: 10/28/2021 8:14:00 AM
Despondent loneliness or vibrant aloneness … what’ll it be? :)
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Date: 10/28/2021 6:04:00 AM
A place that blends happy and melancholy. Your poem gives voice to many who go there to spend some time among people--- for the life is lonely otherwise. But true--you still cry alone.
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Date: 10/28/2021 3:17:00 AM
Such a sad tale Victor, but one that many folk will recognise I am sure. With kindest thoughts Ann xx
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Date: 10/28/2021 2:57:00 AM
Sometimes life is like that Victor, we just have to make the best of what we've got. Tom
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Date: 10/28/2021 1:40:00 AM
mo many lonely and depressed people can paint on a smile, well penned victor. hugs Jan xx
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Date: 10/28/2021 1:29:00 AM
Very sad and painful, yet the case of many lonely souls, Victor:) glad it's fiction for you:)
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Date: 10/28/2021 12:14:00 AM
I found this poem captivating, it resonates with me, glad I came by!
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Date: 10/27/2021 10:38:00 PM
Sometimes sadness and heartbreak are pretty hard to hide. Your poem conveys the mood of despondency very well. Masterfully written.
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