How I Am Feeling

My feet do not feel steady under me I feel as if at any moment I could topple over, My mind is unable to keep a single thought captive I want to cry, but I forbid it Being strong is something I muster from deep inside Something that often doesn't resemble myself at all I want to believe, I want to believe I can trust I want to believe I can be Questions go unanswered in my mind All the while I ask them on replay Heartbreak is something that keeps me up at night Something I want to run from But alas you cannot run from such a thing Being busy helps me push down my feelings Being busy keeps my min misplaced Drinking helps me forget