How Do I Feel

When reality hits How do you feel? Hit by the truth of the matter How do you feel? Rewrite the narrative Squash it down Make it more palatable Get the pen, scratch out the words How do I feel? How do I feel about the way you are? Trying to ensure I've prepared your path Listening to what you say you want Which parallels with what I want for you But then... But then, you don't walk the path You undo, unravel and scatter I tried... I tried to put everything you wanted Right there... Right there for the taking But you didn't walk forward How do I feel? I know you won't walk the path It's my path, societies path It's abstract for you Just something you want tomorrow Not putting in today's effort Because tomorrow is your day But how do I feel? I live in today and each today is spoiled By the way I can't fix you But how do I feel? I feel I tried my best But I can't spend each of my today's Preparing your tomorrow Because that's all of my days The path is there, you are free to walk it Should it grow mossy Or harder to find That's out of my control Because I feel I need to live my days I'm sad That's how I feel I offered you your dream By forgetting to exist in mine I'm a player in the history of the future I can get that right Because that is today And I am here When I look over my shoulder There you are Still telling me about tomorrow