Hidden

HIDDEN Bad turns to worse Opening yourself to the hurt Repeated acts of suicide Disrupted family, no charm Emptiness, sense of not belonging Relationships going downhill, falling Love then comes hate Impulsiveness, horrible mistakes Not allowed to change the past If I could, more mistakes will come Happiness will not last People judge me for things I can’t help Experiences, emotions I have felt Restless, risky Over exaggerating all the time Never relaxed, but sometimes Anxiety grabs and consumes me Loosens up on its grip But I will never really be free Inappropriate anger, frantic it seems The lonely hole in my heart, gigantic Young, paranoid and alone Disturbed, friends they disown Identity gone, self-image uncertain Self-destructiveness, I hide Overdosing, a risk I have taken Recurrent threats, promises I keep breaking Difficulty doing what I am told Not good with management Excessive efforts to avoid abandonment Restless, diagnosed borderline has me by the throat