Hidden
HIDDEN
Bad turns to worse
Opening yourself to the hurt
Repeated acts of suicide
Disrupted family, no charm
Emptiness, sense of not belonging
Relationships going downhill, falling
Love then comes hate
Impulsiveness, horrible mistakes
Not allowed to change the past
If I could, more mistakes will come
Happiness will not last
People judge me for things I can’t help
Experiences, emotions I have felt
Restless, risky
Over exaggerating all the time
Never relaxed, but sometimes
Anxiety grabs and consumes me
Loosens up on its grip
But I will never really be free
Inappropriate anger, frantic it seems
The lonely hole in my heart, gigantic
Young, paranoid and alone
Disturbed, friends they disown
Identity gone, self-image uncertain
Self-destructiveness, I hide
Overdosing, a risk I have taken
Recurrent threats, promises I keep breaking
Difficulty doing what I am told
Not good with management
Excessive efforts to avoid abandonment
Restless, diagnosed borderline has me by the throat
Copyright © Gretchen Cruz | Year Posted 2015
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