He Taught Me

He taught me, never to trust myself Second guessing became second nature He taught me, that his rejection was nothing Minimal to that of the world He taught me loneliness, with him at my side physically there, mentally long gone He taught me, that I wasn't good enough on to the next, or back to the ex He taught me, how to feel invisible even good girls finish last He taught me, how to be his shoulder but was no where to be seen when I needed one He taught me, how to be alone than he got upset when I mastered the art of it He taught me, how to be bad didn't expect I'd do it better than him He taught me, how to run to him couldn't take it when I ran from him He taught me, how to survive in chaos sometimes in my peace I create it He taught me, about comfort and never to trust it He taught me, how to need him but to never rely on him He taught me, how to do the deed get dressed, walk out and pretend like it meant nothing He taught me, not to feel to build walls all around me He taught me, disappointment and to never let it surprise me He taught me, that big girls don't cry to suck it up and move on He forgot to love me.