Emile Pinet Poet Sonnet

He Meant All To Me

When I was young, I used to talk to God
in silent conversations in my head.
And I never thought that those talks were odd,
no more than when I knelt beside my bed.

I would speak to God almost every day,
praying for His help for the umpteenth time.
And I would beg Him to take me away,
anywhere else but home would've been sublime.

I lived in fear of my father's beatings,
while in my youth, God was my only friend.
And in my heart, I cherished our meetings,
but the abuse and nightmares did not end.

Now, I'm as cynical as one can be;
for where was God, when He meant all to me?

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Ann Peck August 24, 2022 at 8:34 AM Dear Emile, I'm so sorry you were abused I was verbally abused and demeaned by my step-mother until I left home for college. I understand the pain and fear. But, Emile: you've turned that pain and fear into beautiful poetry. Perhaps God nudged you there. Take good care, my friend. Emile Pinet August 24, 2022 at 9:55 AM Thanks, Ann, your words have touched my heart, my friend, Emile.

L Milton Hankins August 20, 2022 at 8:42 AM I know exactly how you felt, Emile, and I understand the impact on our lives into adulthood. Excellent sonnet on this subject and congratulations on your placement. Emile Pinet August 24, 2022 at 9:53 AM Thanks, Milt, it seems we share a traumatic past and I appreciate your friendship and support my friend, Emile.

Regina Mcintosh August 20, 2022 at 5:59 AM I can't answer your questions, your doubts, only God can.. and He will. Never give in to the darkness.. give Him a chance to reveal His light in you. I'm so sorry you had such heartbreaking experiences. I am at a loss for words, but always know, God loves you so. God bless you friend. Love, Gina Emile Pinet August 20, 2022 at 8:00 AM Thanks, Regina, I appreciate your advice, feelings, and faith my friend, your comments are always welcome, Emile.

Line Gauthier March 3, 2018 at 9:18 AM Very touching, Emile. I often thought the same conversation was had by most Jewish prisoners in concentration camps. Very powerful poem, Emile. Emile Pinet March 3, 2018 at 9:39 AM Thanks Line, I appreciate your support. Emile.

Michael Miers June 2, 2015 at 1:44 PM what good, other than a curiosity to occupy time, does an eternal supremacy do for such a temporal and mean existence. Emile Pinet June 2, 2015 at 7:50 PM Thanks Michael, what good indeed! Emile.

Lindsay Laurie May 24, 2015 at 9:02 PM G'day Emile... personal topics like in your poem must bring back unpleasant memories, and because of this the question you are still asking God is very relevant - Lindsay Emile Pinet May 25, 2015 at 9:15 AM Thanks Lindsay, the question remains relevant, the answer is no longer paramount. Emile.

Kim Merryman May 24, 2015 at 1:21 PM My heart was moved by your words, Emile! I don't pretend to know why God allows bad things to happen to innocent children, but I do know He hears our prayers, even if we don't get the answer we seek. As a result of your pain, He has given you a wonderful talent in writing poetry. Great write! Love, Kim Emile Pinet May 24, 2015 at 2:23 PM Thanks Kim, I appreciate your kind words. Emile.

Robert Lindley May 23, 2015 at 10:43 PM Can not imagine a father being that way. My father was the most caring and generous man I've ever known. Truly great poem my friend. Deep and reveals that life in our(mankind's) fallen state is not fair. Trust that God heard every prayer. Answers come on his time not ours. A7.. Emile Pinet May 24, 2015 at 9:17 AM Thanks Robert, I appreciate your kind words and generous support. Emile.

Richard Lamoureux May 23, 2015 at 8:37 AM This resonates with me, it sounds like the first par of our stories are similar. I wrote a book called "DUMMY, hurtful and healing words" it deals with growing up with an abusive father and the impact of words in my life. It also deals with my faith struggles as well. I think you would be able to relate to much of my story. Emile Pinet May 23, 2015 at 8:49 AM Thanks Richard, it seems that we are kindred spirits and share similar feelings, I thank you, but I have long ago conquered my demons, and I'm now quite content with my life. Emile.

Kp Nunez May 23, 2015 at 5:48 AM Just done with a cheerful reply to your comment then I came here, then went speechless over this. If I say that the things you went through are part of the reason of why you write with such sensitivity...no, even that is not enough. So I'll say that despite everything, Emile, you came out of it and we were given the privilege of reading your creative writes, for that we thank you, for not allowing bitterness to cloud your heart and soul thereby killing your talent. You are deeply valued. Kim Emile Pinet May 23, 2015 at 8:25 AM Kim, your words have touched my heart and brought a tear to my soul, thank you for your kindness. Emile.

Janet Runyan May 22, 2015 at 10:34 PM So touching. Grew up the same way. Still "speak" to god the same way. It took years for my father to realize he was wrong and eventually he apologized and I forgave. He still feels no better and I can't change that. It feels horrible to not know if you're being listened to but sometimes I get the proof. So awesomely but often enough to keep me asking and thanking. But I have an unusual relationship so.. I don't know. Adding to favs today :) Emile Pinet May 23, 2015 at 8:29 AM Thank you Janet, your caring heart has reached out to me and I am grateful for its touch. Emile.

Arthur Vaso May 22, 2015 at 9:31 PM Emile, another masterpiece here, A7 for me! Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 9:40 PM Thanks Arthur, I appreciate all of your support. Emile.

Andrea Dietrich May 22, 2015 at 4:56 PM this is sad, Emile. That you had to go through that. you have ended up a very sensitive soul. Maybe God was helping you not to end up like your dad?? I hope you did not lose belief in a God. VERY good entry to the contest. Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 8:27 PM Thanks Andrea, I appreciate your support, perhaps you are right and my prayers were answered in the long run. Emile.

Joseph May May 22, 2015 at 4:16 PM Powerful, and poignant write Emile... sorry you had to be subjected to such abuse...best wishes Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 8:25 PM Thanks Joseph, I appreciate your support. Emile.

Laura Leiser May 22, 2015 at 3:12 PM I'm so sorry you had to endure this pain and abuse in your childhood, Emile. You are such a gifted poet, and I don't see any cynical side coming through in your poetry, at least. We don't understand why God allows such pain, but it truly is not from Him as a punishment. May you find His Love to overcome the pain. Hugs, Laura Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 8:24 PM Thanks Laura, I appreciate your kind words of support. Emile.

Constance La France May 22, 2015 at 2:32 PM Emile, oh my this is heartbreaking, it makes me want to weep, there is so much pain in your words, 7+++and thanks for visiting my poem, words frozen. .. Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 2:57 PM Thanks Broken Wings, I appreciate your friendship and support. Emile.

Poet Destroyer A May 22, 2015 at 12:51 PM Hello, Emile, this is deep. I can't imagine the struggle you went through. I don't even come close to knowing the feeling of being let down in the end. I'm moved by every line. I know how it feels, asking the question of all questions. Where was he? I don't know the answer, however, my heart does. One must not lose faith. A high 7, wishing you the best..... Always & Forever ~LINDA~ Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 2:58 PM Thanks Linda, I appreciate your friendship and support. Emile.

Jan Allison May 22, 2015 at 12:50 PM what a deep sad poem Emile made me feel quite emotional thinking that his prayers were not answered - good luck in the contest:-) Hugs jan xx 7 xx Emile Pinet May 22, 2015 at 2:58 PM Thanks Jan, I appreciate your friendship and support. Emile.