Have You Ever

Have you ever danced to the rhythm of life The rise and the fall of your body on the bed Counting the precise seconds between each breath The way feet seem to always find a way to move forward The way you might chase your heart racing away And smile to yourself through lonely celebrations Have you ever been born again As if your eyes had their memory of the sun erased A new life greeted by the reborn sun coming off the sea Realizing how profoundly beautiful it all can be Wondering how it was possible to miss something That was always there…but also not Have you ever forgotten love Knowing where you have been…how far you have fallen Wondering if anyone would talk to you at 3AM again And fantasizing how they would much rather stare straight into your eyes Look at you as if you were only thing left on Earth Making your hands shake from holding onto them so tightly Have you ever dreamt about strangers Somehow still waking up more and more devastated How it felt losing them felt so real and so fake at the same time Is there really someone out there waiting to meet a person like me Desperate enough to crack themselves open like an egg Allowing their love to bleed out onto the street like yolk Have you ever lost someone Forced to let go of something you couldn’t afford to lose Scared of the way you might drag them down with you When they were the best thing you ever chanced upon Wishing that they would have listened through the silence Of that you could have seen through the smiles No… You’re not that ugly You’re not that stupid You’re not that invisible You’re not that unwanted You’re still unbroken Have you ever been human Yes… You have been and forever will be Just as I will hide these lines forever in your nightmares So that each time you face your demons You might think that someone cared about you