H I M

I hate holding everything in. I just want to scream. I want to punch my wall until my knuckles bleed. I want to lay on the ground and cry. Until I feel that deep pain in my heart. I wish I could run away smiling without a care in the world, But I feel everything... Mostly the pain. How do people live a happy life. I see that there is so much to live for and to love And to create an endless amount of laugher, but the darkness is too consuming. When I close my eyes I feel him again crying out in pain as his tears fall onto my chest. only now I can’t be there to wipe away his tears. I am only a passing thought. He doesn’t want to torture me anymore. Does he realize it’s too late?