Guilt

I feel it. I felt it. Numbingly so. I dealt with it. It eats me a live like lions eat their prey. Tearing and stretching my insides everyday. Of course I feel bad. I refuse to allow this to compromise the heart that fills me up. I refuse to give her up. I won't let it take control of me. Although it threatens to splash all over me. I am drown in my guilt. I see the unhappiness I myself am building. This isn't good for me. I need to defeat this some how.