Goodbye

My feelings for you are a bitter sweet concoction of love and anguish Indescribable in any language To me you're evil, yet my angel all wrapped up in a package made from my own skin It hurts to love you It hurts to hate you It hurts to cast you out, but even more to let you in. In one motion you made me feel safe and then like I was drowning They say drowning is the worst way to die. Your head fills with pressure until it feels like its about to implode, and then... You release the air in your lungs and you're filled with nothing but the most pure sensation of pleasure. That's the best way I could describe you. A build up of unbearable pain, followed by the pleasure of letting you go. To be free from the toxic waste that is you. You sucked the life from every part of me yet it felt like you were filling me with hope and happiness. That's the worst form of abuse. To be made to feel whole and happy, while all the while you're slipping deeper into the abyss. You were two years well spent. While I realized later in life how horrible I felt during, but in the moment it was fun, and new and exciting. You were the best, worst few years of my life. Goodbye.