Gayboy Child

To emerge as my mother's son but heatedly defined by not my father's wanted one, or child of either gender much less elements of both male and female humane with divine regenerativity. To know I could not win his love, that any admiration would grow silent begrudged rather than recreationally owned and laughingly proclaimed As if competitive male v female over-population within my family's multigenerational home left no room for me except this marginal manger A ***** son with two unqueer parents but only one capable of healthy love for him as is whenever and whyever delivered to rebirth in selfless wealth-care. Clothed yet terrified of chronic naked need for a gift I could not should not would not earn from Him, to sip his not-not yet cup of pleasured Life, as dispassionate Death. Messianic son brought into Earth's carnation to co-redeem his Father's unhealthy insufficient love sustained through virginal milk, timeless manna of Mother Earth's multiculturing compassions. If Buddha brain notices bicameral enlightenment, Cosmic Christ belongs to ProGenitor SunGod personal enough to sing intimate love songs of synthesis Psalms of nonviolence for my ears and reimagining eyes and taste and touch so I can bring them back in expanding rings of regenerating language con-spiraling passionately pleasured love. Enlightened queerly curious I and my co-empowering SunGod Father, One (0)-soul bilateral resonant EcoLogical Ego-path, becoming EarthTribe integral Repurposed to super-size mutually therapeutic vocations through dipolar appositional Bodhisattva co-mission, zen-silent RePresence, EarthTribe's PostDevolutionary Win/Win Revolution Ticking ticking ticking ticking time's robust resonant ReSolutions, Love as Bicameral Co-op Enculturation, optimizing ReGenerative Great Transition Climate Health. Each of Earth's RNA/DNA Tribes come through SunGod Father, sun's light pre- and post-regenerator of each life's 4-seasoned birth through decomposition back into time's 0-squared transparently naked light Ego/EcoPresent co-gravitating Therapy/Trauma Win/Lose Mind/Body Wealth/Health Passion/Pleasure transgenerative panentheistic consciousness equipoised surfing between SunGod's enlightening inhale Pole and exhale of timeless BlackEarth-Powering Hole eternally unfolding Convex Landscape's Universe through MotherEarth's embryonic Concave co-redemptive passion/pleasure song/dance neurosystemic senses.