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A Constance contest 20 June 2023

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Forgiveness

Venomous poison ran through my veins
exuding an emotionless nihilism
that led to everyday iniquitous quarrels
that left us devoid of truth and peace.
 
Why did I lose myself in such self-pity?
Can I blame you for your obscene replies?
Had love taken an undeserved holiday?
Confusion and irrational thoughts reigned.
 
Oh, foolish humans that we were to lose
so easily our much-esteemed dignity.
We lost the "we" and ego ruled the roost.
So we run roughshod over each other,
never considering those brakes we could have used.
 
But a brake did come.  She stopped in mid-sentence.
I was astounded as she sat down bewildered
not pronouncing one word.  Trembling I held her hand.
Was it my fault she was struck so?  Perhaps,
but from then on I became her nurse.
 
Gone forever were the malevolent intentions
that dominated my nefarious and despicable dealings.
I had now one aim in life, to bring her back to normal.
Too late I realized how much I really loved her.
 
Gone was my dignity, my hatred, my retaliations.
My soul grew into a humane and caring nurse,
the old pains gone and I find it exhilarating to see
her progressing towards a semblance of normality.


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Kiser Avatar
June 25, 2023 at 12:38 PM
This is some beautiful introspection; well penned and congratulations on your win!
Goldsmith Avatar
June 24, 2023 at 11:56 AM
Congratulations on your win. A powerful write. We all need "Forgiveness." Have a blessed day/weekend writing away..................
Volumes Avatar
June 24, 2023 at 1:30 AM
Your poem is well written Victor, and I would love to hear some of the wonderfully happy times you and your wife shared. Writing about them will fill you with happiness, and make you feel so much better. You have a wonderful talent
Ball Avatar
June 24, 2023 at 12:32 AM
PS Congrats on a well deserved win. JB
Ball Avatar
June 24, 2023 at 12:30 AM
Hmmm Been there and done that my friend. God Bless, JB
Alex Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 10:20 PM
"Had love taken an undeserved holiday?" - A very beautiful poetical question. Beautifully written. Congratulations!
Poet Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 7:35 PM
Back, Heartfelt congratulations on your podium contest win with this lovely poem. Blessings
Romios Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 1:27 PM
A potent poem that holds much meaning, Letting go of negative gives us freedom An outstanding poem.with meaning. Panagiota You are on my prayer list. God is our healer!
Proxenos Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 4:39 AM
He (our father) was not allowed to be moved into an ambulance which jolted over any bump and after an operation the previous day. Furthermor my husband had been appointed asGuardian/administrator of of Dad. We find it almost impossible to forgive them. Our dad tragically died without anyone who loved him beside him. We think he died that night but the two relations INSIST THAT IT WAS IN THE MORNING SHORTLY BEFORE THEY CALLED TO TELL US THE SAD NEWS. He was our FATHER Blessings JENNIFER.
Buhagiar Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 9:32 AM
Sorry for my late reply but I have too many medical issues at the moment. I can relate to your story. My wife had dementia and heart problems. I shall never forget seven years ago she came to the door of the toilet, her panties down and clearly in pain. I knew what was going to happen. My doctor could not come. I asked for an ambulance and was told she had a heart block. I knew certainly she would die. They whisked her off to the hospital, no place for me. I phoned my daughter but there was a lot of traffic. Finally, we arrived at the Emergency and three doctors hummed and hawed that I got fed up with them. The three witches of Macbeth. Finally, they admitted my wife was dead. Afterwards, I saw her in a coffin. I never wept, but I still grieve for her. She was an angel. Thank you for your email. Regards Victor
Proxenos Avatar
June 23, 2023 at 3:31 AM
forgiveness means leaving your ego behind to a relation which one can do but to a relations who took an old 93 year man who had an operation the previous day and was half comatose and kidnapped him by telling the NURSE IN CHARGE OF ICU THAT WE WERE all related but without telling us they took him into a posh after care facility which we later found out was run not by a nurse but by care givers and a mature woman who had no medical qualification AND CAREGIVERS WHO ONLY HAD A 3 MONTH CERTIFICATE
Rodrigues Avatar
June 22, 2023 at 6:04 AM
Forgiveness blesses us in so many ways. To follow our Lord in his mercy and grace is noteworthy in heaven. God bless you real good, dear one!
Daniel Avatar
June 22, 2023 at 4:34 AM
Another top notch poem, Victor:)
Messina Avatar
June 22, 2023 at 3:35 AM
Emotions are a hard thing to overcome...in the end, she loved you more than you know. By no means was it your fault, my friend. Good Luck in the contest. Excellent write!
George Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 9:24 PM
This is a poem which has deep pychological implications. It is perhaps one of your best, I feel! When unexpected reactions come from a loved one it can land the other in a trauma. It is exactly what happened to her. She must have loved you so much. But when you realized that your anger left her shattered, your attitude changed and your sole focus turned into bringing her back to life !
Rose  Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 8:04 PM
Oh Victor, you should not feel bad, it wasn't your fault, life sometimes gives us awful twists and unexpected illnesses, I am sure she knew you loved her. The time you spend nursing her was proof enough that you cared, remember the good times and know she has forgiven you a million times over,:)
Allison Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 1:39 PM
what a wonderful theme you chose victor, such a thought provoking piece, well written as ever my friend:-) hugs Jan xx
Dietrich Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 12:14 PM
wow, it's so nice to see the resentment turned into benevolence. Great idea!!
Buehler Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 11:46 AM
What a wonderful story, Victor. It really affirms the joy and power of forgiveness. Much enjoyed!
Callus Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 11:37 AM
Your touching poem serves as a lesson to us, Victor. Nowadays I realize how much time and effort I wasted in life trying to make my point! ~ Hope you are now in better health. Regards // paul
Roper Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 11:32 AM
To let loose your emotions and ask forgiveness it’s a hard task ; you have to know you’ve caused those sins before you ask . Fantastic verse
Andresen Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 10:04 AM
- When bad words are shared ... it is difficult to confess one's own mistakes ... forgiveness can be difficult for some ... it takes time to build new trust in a relationship, Victor - A deeply heartbreaking poem - Good luck in the contest :) - hugs
Kendrick Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 9:57 AM
The last line says it all. Nefarious acts to a person can cause irreversible harm but sometimes there is a cure by forgiveness and love. Thanks for sharing these lines with us today and for dropping by my page. I am glad you are well enough to be back online and so sorry you were so ill. Sara
Anaya Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 9:55 AM
A wonderful testimony and story of caregiving just genius "We lost the "we" and ego ruled the roost" so well-said. B0l in the contest, Victor!
Poet Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 7:21 AM
Oh, Victor, what an exquisite poem you have crafted. Your mastery of language and vivid imagery truly make it a standout among your works. The malevolent intentions that once consumed the wicked and detestable actions have vanished into oblivion, as forgiveness emerges as the ultimate balm for redemption.
Pandit Avatar
June 21, 2023 at 5:37 AM
Gone forever were the malevolent intentions that dominated my nefarious and despicable dealings--forgiveness heals.
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