Forever, Never, Sweetheart

You tell me you don't hate me but then when I try to protect you, warn you, you shun me. I don't know how you say you love someone, then turn around and treat them the way you do. Every promise we made, you broke. Not once have I stopped being loyal to you. I don't know why I'm holding on like I do. I felt like an idiot and I still do after that day I came to see you. I don't know why you would hold me, and tell me you love me, when I know you really don't. My heart is hanging by a thread, I don't think it no longer beats the same. Everytime you punish me for my mistakes, I break a little more each day. You were supposed to be my best friend through thick and thin. I don't see you the same and it hurts in the worst way. I'm always wishing the best for you even when you ignore and shun me. I don't need you to love me, I would just like your love a lot. Now I know what it's like to be in your shoes when everyone except me stopped loving you. Through good and bad I always had your back. Now it's all about you. The narcissist who has to find himself with music and pot. At one point he forgot about me. While you're on this self discovery, this freeing yourself journey could you think please? Think of me? One time to the girl who'd love him even when he made her mad. Two times for the girl that took him back even when he cheated. Three times for the girl who walked away from her family for him. No times for the girl as she sits lost in love. Everyday we spoke, and you're fine coping without my voice. Now you tell me in four months you're sober to this love. I know you won't respond you never do. You don't love me, not like I love you. You don't respect me, like I do you. Don't look up to me, like I do you. You care nothing about my feelings you just pity me, and you're happy with the girl I turned out to be. You think I'm damaged goods. One day you'll realize I was the tight beat to that dope rhyme you kicked. I was your backbone that always helped you get back up again. I was the Yin to your Yang. Don't ever forget how much I loved you. Don't ever forget all the love I brought you. Yeah you're cold to me now, on some I'm better than you ish. You don't have to tell me I can feel it. And I'm not even mad I'm just hurt. Not even mad, just hurt that I'm always looking out for you. Putting you first. You'll never read this, you'll never respond. Forever, never, huh sweetheart?