For You Jason

It's almost Christmas and you are not here. I tell myself you are happy and having a Merry Christmas in Heaven, But my heart won't listen. All it does is continue to break, tears keep falling I swear they could fill a lake. I miss you this Christmas Eve, this coming Christmas Day. I put the smile on and act okay but nothing ever will be, because those men took you away from me, us. I hope their Christmas is filled with guilt, pain and fear. I want them to know, what they took from me, us and the world. A gentle, kind, loving spirit, a son, a papa, husband, brother, cousin and friend. None of us will ever be the same. I keep waiting for your call, but all you phone does is buzz. I am trying to find the ' good ' in this situation. Like I know you want me too. Only comfort is knowing no one can never hurt you again, your safe in the arms of God. So my beloved Son Jason Clark this is for you, Merry Christmas, Sweet Dreams and Good Night till we meet again. I love you my son, Mom December 24, 2017