For I Am Lost

I feel I am lost I feel that everything I know has been stripped away I tried to tell them, I tried to warn them But they never listen Dont they know how long it took me to find my voice To find the courage to tell them what happened Instead, they take away my voice and tell everyone I’m unstable And when it happens again they claimed not to know Every day I feel as if a million eyes are upon me, I can feel their breaths upon my neck The thoughts they think, but never speak Are even louder in the quiet room I sink deeper into my own thought and emotions I hate this body I’m in, It has been tainted and ruined Who could love me now People say I’ll get over it when I’m older But will I? Or will the pain continue to grow, eating me alive? Maybe I won't get older, maybe this is where it ends What would they say if I took my life away? Who would care if I took my last breath? How will I ever be able to move on? When will I be at peace? Or will the ghost of them linger on my skin driving me mad But I’m not crazy I don’t need to be fixed I just need… I don’t know. I don't know anything anymore I don’t even know who to trust I should have seen it coming I shouldn't have trusted them Instead, here I lay Not moving, not eating, and not drinking What’s the point anyways No one cared enough to help me, so why would they care now? I’m told I was a victim But I feel like I did something wrong Something to make them do what they did Maybe I am crazy They took away my voice and tell everyone I’m unstable They don’t know how long it took me to find my voice To find the courage to say what happened But they never listen For I am lost