Fond Memories That Are Not True

Don't want to leave you now Last night I cried myself to sleep Counted over a thousand sheep But still i could not sleep More than ever I still don't want to leave you now But i have finally realized Its no longer up to me So let us rather spend what little time I still have left As best as we can so neither of us regret Or leave a single thing unsaid If there is anything you ever wanted to ask Or get off your chest Better ask me now For I have no more tear's to cry Before I Die I don't want to but i have to come to terms with this Before my diagnosis nothing seemed precious What a fool I was to myself I thought I would live forever But now i know better So many regret's But when I look into your eyes It all makes sense I should have spent all of my time Being thankful you were mine Instead of on things I can no longer remember Or now seem irrelevant I wish I never said no when I could yes I wish I would have cared more I wish I never ignored A single second that I though never mattered Life is wasted on the living Until the reaper comes calling And all you have left is to look back And will never get back How is it i love you more ? Now than before ? I am the same person as before You know the 1 you used to ignore Or never had time for But all is forgiven The dead will always be looked on More favorable then when they were living All there faults are put to 1 side We only seem to recall the good things And more than anything We sit and wish they were here with us now And forget all about how Why we never cared that much when they were alive Only good memories of the dead survive So we can justify the fact We never acknowledged them when they were still alive