Finding Peace

I was absolved for never trying to find peace. Which came to me on that fretless day. A happiness that felt so unnatural- That I suspected it was a threat to me. And that this realization was simply a fantasy. The realization that my mind had been poisoned my whole life. That the pain I was fighting was not simple laziness. My old life that felt so dull- I was just starting to understand that I was actually in pain. And that my silence that used to come so easily… Was hiding my desperation.