Fear To Write

Fear in my heart not sure where to start or where to end i cannot pretend that life is also puppies and rainbows but I can hope for something better I recognize my privilege because my life is not that bad although better than yours at least I can look in the mirror everyday and know who I am and know how I am dealing with there is no sugar coating the truth that all people suck some just better than others and while I may have had a few too many I know that I am thinking quite clearly you just choose not to hear me my emotions rule me and make me a better person because I am in touch with all the things that any person should but rather hide according to the guide all men are stupid and I am more of the sum of the whole or the hole of the some I just rather just freeze my veins and become like the rest go from hole to hole like a game on the green but i know myself I am not that mean so that just leaves me back a square one with thoughts that are clear and a heart full of fear