Fear

Fear for me, was running for my life When I spoke out about my past People chasing me down… While I watched corrupt people take a Lieutenant’s life Running for my safety, watching my back As they wanted to silence me again Fear is also wrapped up in continual nightmares Waking up frozen in terror, heart pounding, sweating I have had them my entire life, from trauma in the past Filled with fear I had as a child, when they tortured me When they took my voice, silenced me, threatened me --- Again, fear of losing my life --- I know the depth of fear and what it has taken to face it To get through it, to fight, to flee, to do everything… --- To Create Safety --- Heidi Sands 8/28/17

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Mike Gentile

Date: 8/29/2017 9:00:00 AM

This depicts the ultimate fear, Heidi and so vividly, hoping this is not true for you. Good luck!!

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/29/2017 9:50:00 AM

Hi Mike. Yes, that has been the truth for me. I am ok though. Thank you for your comment on this :)

Ralph Sergi

Date: 8/29/2017 7:07:00 AM

A poignant but powerful poem, Heidi! I wish you well in the contest.

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/29/2017 7:08:00 AM

Thank you very much Ralph. I appreciate your comment on this ! :)

Dean Wood

Date: 8/28/2017 9:04:00 PM

I am reading some powerful poems tonight. This is gripping Heidi.

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/29/2017 6:15:00 AM

Thank you Dean :)

Joseph May

Date: 8/28/2017 3:48:00 PM

So sad when fear grips us even in dreams...Best wishes

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/28/2017 3:54:00 PM

At least it is not every night, Joseph, but consistent, through life, yes. Trauma replays like that, with PTSD. Thank you for your compassionate comment on this :)

Kim Rodrigues

Date: 8/28/2017 3:47:00 PM

Fear, indeed drags out, into adulthood for the affected child. Nicely done, Heidi!

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/28/2017 3:54:00 PM

Thank you for your understanding comment, Kim ! :)

Vijay Pandit

Date: 8/28/2017 3:39:00 PM

I guess poems of fear would be sad--you articulated it well!

Heidi Sands
Date: 8/28/2017 3:39:00 PM

Yes, Fear is a difficult thing in life. Thank you for your kind feedback, Vijay!