Falling Off the Deep End

I told myself that you were off limits I promised that I would not fall But I lost that battle early on With each joke and laugh we share, the less I want to hang on. The edge is drawing near. I don't want to fall, but I'm not ready to jump My lifeline is growing shorter,  Each laugh is like a gravitational pull I can't hold on much longer The reason why I won't jump is replaced with an encouraging one. The water is shallow and I know that A leap of faith is all it takes I keep drawing back, letting fear take over I can't be scared forever can I? To keep fighting makes me weak, but you give me the strength  One day I will let go, but how do I know that you'll be there to catch me if I fall? Little do I know, I fell a long time ago.