Fake It Till You Make It

Pressure from school is alright once you get used to it, the options of jobs and what you want to be in the future’s pressure crushes down upon you because of indecisiveness. Sometimes death doesn’t sound so serious and frightening. Life feels like it gets harder each year, if you don’t want to die then live. Once you are gone, you can’t come back. The pressure is gone but all your joyous memories are all fading away. Sometimes you can’t even envision let alone go back to how it was. I want to die. I don’t want to die. Life is too short to dwell on these options. Ending it takes away all your chances. Upon reaching so called happiness then realizing it doesn’t exist. Don’t cut your existence short, how will they remember you now? Recalling these things too late won’t make a difference when you're lying in a pool of your own blood as the silver knife you had in your hand tainted scarlet or the trigger pulled gun lying beside you as the only thing keeping you alive is a string of your memories. Life flashes before your eyes. Live longer, it keeps your last unfulfilled regrets farther away. The pressure doesn’t feel as bad, and society sucks and the pain reliever may be a jump away. But remember, there could be someone who’ll let their tears fall down for you, as someone may die in front of a screen right now. It could be you one day, you never know when you might just die. If you're just as egotistical as me, living in someone’s memories isn’t enough when you need to be engraved into their heart, even one heart is enough. Does life hate us? Or do we just hate ourselves? Happiness, sadness, friendship, affection, even family, they can all be excuses to not go away. So continue on, just live.