Facsimile

Is the mirror showing the real me or is it a Facsimile? I'm trying to smile and be positive, but due to depression I lack energy Trying to move forward but I'm a victim of my past memories Is the mirror showing the real me, or is it a facsimile? When I give my food for thought, I always provide you a full plate But lately I've been stuck inside a maze that I can't escape Every girl I meet, judges my reputation, and thinks I go through girls like I'm Drake How Can I explain that I'm using girls as a comfort blanket to get over previous heartbreak? I'm loyal when in a relationship, but when I'm single I play the field I struggle to be alone I find it hard to face my troubles on my own I'm at war with depression and it took away my shield I struggle with being alone,yet can't open up to anyone who comes near me Too many times I've been broken by a girl who said she'd repair me I no longer listen to words, which is a stupid thing for a poet to say I protect myself, so I tend to push away people I want to stay I have 4 or 5 friends with benefits, without anything real No relationship, because I miss Chantal and I'm using all of these other I tell them, I'm unavailable emotionally But most of them still catch feelings and want to get close to me But my heart won't allow it, I can only accept a certain amount of affection and love Parents never gave me any, so that's why I usually end up rejecting your hugs I try to give my all, but my past makes me keep some hidden I'm just a damaged, Bipolar, ex self-harming, Depressed man who's always been treated different Is the mirror showing the real me or is it a Facsimile? I'm trying to smile and be positive, but due to depression I lack energy Trying to move forward but I'm a victim of my past memories Is the mirror showing the real me, or is it a facsimile?