Eventually

Hyper vigilant Hyper aware of this body These hands... This heartbeat It is all normal Yet I feel some kind of lingering lurking anxiety An energy...An entity Following me... That thing is me... I can't seem to set myself free from the shaking The chains of OCD The sound of jingling thoughts in this head Like piggybank pennies A sudden clanging in my chest I'm scared... and I don't know why Scared of sleep... Terrified of random but normal things Like this heart and it's job... Scared of the strings that tie me to this secondhand shivering This inherited lip quivering I'm slowly slipping into the sea Almost drenched in worry Saying goodbye to my sanity Thinking "I'll drown eventually"