Empty

I have always felt a deep sadness that I could never run away from. I never gave up and look how far I managed to come. I can't tell you how many people told me that I had it easy. If my life was so easy, why do I feel like I can never be free? I have everything I need and yet, I still feel this darkness in my heart. I feel these emotions all at once and it is tearing me apart! It's getting worse and all I can do is hope for that one day; The one day, where I won't feel like I'm wasting away. I hate feeling this pain deep inside and not knowing what's wrong with me. I can't explain why I always feel like I'm drowning! I don't know how to control these emotions that weigh me down. I can't explain for fear of dragging down anyone who is around. I don't want to burden anyone more than I already do. I'll keep telling myself I'm doing this for you. I don't want you to see this depression or these emotions that consumes me. I'll continue being strong for you, but I'll never let you see.