Emotional Sleep

The darkened room places shadows on the walls I lay on my side and cuddle into a ball, closing my eyes Feeling unsafe and wondering how long I'll live I've been sickly now for a pretty long time And I wonder how much longer before I die? My mind gets so cluttered with all the things in my life Without relief or support, I wonder what can I do? A knock, then bang, shhhh, don't cry out or speak, Maybe they will think no one is here and just go away Now I can see a shadow on the blind, it's only my cat, Valentine Seems she is lonely wants to be close to me, but why? As i lay in my bed, I'm no good to myself but pet her head And my head starts spinning with so much I dread This world is for some people, and some people not As Whitney and Robin Williams who left us behind But I lay here a coward, wondering how it would be My eyes are now heavy, I can't stay awake So please Lord take me, so I can finally get sleep.