Ego vs Reality
I keep trying to force life to happen,
Force feelings to happen,
Force thoughts to align with an identity that drags me down,
Yet the very thing I seek remains forever out of reach,
Happiness is the process of letting go,
Letting go of the very self I cling to,
Time slows to an unbearable halt,
I want to be better,
I want to be stronger,
I want, I want…
The ego screams it’s demands,
A deal with reality,
As if only then I will be happy,
As if reality was something you could bargain with,
And suddenly I see the grief,
I don’t want to hurt anymore,
I can’t accept reality,
And there is the truth behind my pain,
My inability to accept it in the first place,
Can I sit with the truth no matter how ugly?
No? Then how can I expect to be happy?
I am still sugar coating the world around me,
I shy away from it’s constantly changing story,
I try to separate the good from the bad,
I create my own world to live in,
To protect the self I am trying to leave behind…
Copyright © Laura Davies | Year Posted 2024
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