Each Day
Each morning
I think of a reason
Not to kill myself.
Each morning
I trust my judgment
Less and less.
Each afternoon
I keep wondering
Why I keep going on.
Each afternoon
I resent the children
And their happy ignorance.
Each evening
I put the gun in my hand
Finger on the trigger.
Each evening
I put the gun down
I'm too afraid.
Each day
Takes a little more
Of my happiness.
Each day
Shows me bitterly
How it could have been.
Each of you
Look away
Blindly.
Each of you
Won't notice me
Disappear.
Each bullet
In this weapon
Sings a song to me.
Each bullet
Hums the tune
Of sweet release.
Each and every day
I imagine
The end.
Each and every day
Isn't today.
Copyright © Harold Grimes Iii | Year Posted 2007
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